Things are looking up!

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, very dim right now, but it is there. She has decided to move in with mom after all and she is telling some very positive things about the bf (not about him but about the situation).

One of the reasons that it is so hard for me to accept that she is pregnant and I am not is the fact that she was acting like it was no big deal, when in fact it is a huge deal. I saw her as acting like it was a cake walk and who really cares and so on.

Now, she is starting to grow up and stand her ground, and it is wonderful! She is thinking about the two little babies growing in her first and herself second and that lifts such a burden off of me, figuratively. I think that she is starting to see what she has gotten into (in more ways than one) and she knows that she has to act now and fast to make sure that it all works out the way that is best.

Still praying for our own miracle one of these months, but it is a little better hearing about hers when I know that she is doing what is in the best interest of the babies and not just her.

Keep praying!

Hope????

Well, went to the doctor today to talk to him about infertility and such and what can be done about it or to fix it. He did an exam on me and I am normal, haha, or as normal as can be! He wants me to have blood work done and an x ray, but I am not sure if that is what we are going to do or not. I talked to the hubby and I think that we are going to try a little longer and maybe give it to the end of the year before trying anyhing medically. It is so very hard though watching little sis going through this and wishing that it were me. She acts like it is nothing and no big deal and I would trade everything that i have to be doing it. Oh well, I guess that that is part of growing up is dealing with anger, and depression without showing anyone else that it is bothering you. Or maybe that is just me. I want this so bad and stuff on my end isn't working out the way that I want it to, but I guess that I just have to sit and let it ride for a while. I don't really know what else to do about it. Uhhhh, I wish that I could just snap my fingers and have what I want when I want, but I know that isn't how this world works. Maybe someday though......

Keep praying for a miracle for me and Jason.