Six Months Old!

Oh Wow, you are already six months old!

You are a big girl, and I say that nicely. You are 18 pounds (roughly) and almost 18 inches long. And you are ACTIVE. You love to bounce!!!!!!!

You have figured out how to roll over, both ways, and have started scooting a bit as well.

You love to try and touch the animals, although they don't share the same love (not yet anyway).

You love to talk, and boy do you have a set of lungs on you! I don't think that you quite know how loud your voice is yet, because you are always yelling, but it is adorable.

Here are some pictures of the last few months.......

ONE MONTH OLD!

Okay, so it has been a long time (again) since I updated this, so here it is in a nutshell.....you are here!

I went into the hospital on the night of Monday, November 8, 2010 at 6:15 pm to be induced. Dr. Courage induced me at 7:20 pm on that night, and by 7:40 pm on that same night the contractions were coming so strong and so fast, I thought that I was going to die! At 11 pm Dr. Courage finally gave me Nu Vein (pain meds) to help me get through the worst of the pain and at midnight (or around there) I was told that I could have an epidural. Lo and behold, when the tech was putting in the epidural, whoops, there went my water! I pushed for approx. one hour (strong pushes) and nothing. You were stuck! So, we ended up using the vacuum and at 4:14 am on November 9, 2010 you came into this world, quietly. You looked right at me and I fell in love. But, I did not get to hold you, and I didn't know why!

It turns out that you had your hand up by your face and when you came into this world, well, you did a number on mommy and they had to stitch me back together and stop the bleeding or we were going to be in trouble. 200 + stitches later, and I got to hold you and it finally hit....I had a daughter!

Even knowing that I have a daughter, there are some days that I look at you sleeping so peacfully, or nursing you, that I can't believe that you are mine. Sitting in the hospital, with nurses, doctors, friends and families coming and going and cuddling with you and you sleeping so peacefully, it is hard to imagine what we are in for. And even when we get home those first few days, you are still so sleepy and content just being fed and going back to sleep. Then, you decide that you want to stay awake, see people, enjoy interacting with me and daddy, and fight sleep to no end. And I wouldn't change it for a minute!

Right now, you are 4 weeks old and growing by leaps and bounds. You weigh approx. 10.2 pounds and are growing so long that you are out of newborn clothing, and some of your 0-3 month clothing does not fit anymore as well! But the pants don't stay on as you do not have a waist yet to talk of. You are nursing, and occasionally bottle fed, very well. You don't like baths, unless they are with mommy and you are holding up your head on your own all the time. You love to ride in the car, unless you are hungry and then nothing can calm you down until you get food.

Your sleeping patterns are backwards, as are most babies when they are little. You sleep very well during the day, with a few hours of wide awake times where you play with your jungle gym or talk to mommy, but at night we struggle. You want to stay awake, which is okay with me. If only you were happy! But you are not the most aggreable baby at 2 am, and then you get tired and fight with me for hours to go back to sleep. When you do fall asleep, you are OUT for hours (usually 3-4) but getting you to that point is interesting almost every night! Hopefully you outgrow this.

Now, as I get ready to go back to work in one week, my heart is tearing as I don't want to leave you and trust someone else to watch you. I don't want to miss one minute of your life. But I thank God every day for the miracle of you and I love you to no end.

Oh, there you are....waking up. That is my cue to go.

21 weeks and counting.....

Okay, so it has been a looooonnnnnngggggg time since I updated, so I am going to do a catch up session.....

11 weeks - You gave us a scare

On April 28, 2010 I had a cold so I stayed home from work, only to have severe abdominal cramps and have to go into ER. Turns out I have a cyst on my right ovary as big as a grapefruit and it is leaking fluid into my abdomen. You are doing wonderful, just mommy feels like throwing up constantly and like her stomach is being ripped out. I got put on restrictions and got to stay in the hospital overnight and stay home from work the rest of the week.

15 weeks....

Follow up ultrasound to see how that cyst is doing and.....it is still there! Smaller, but still present. The pain is still there off and on, but I am getting used to it. But the good news is that the morning sickness is GONE! Yay!!!!!! I am starting to show a little bit, but not a lot. I am having a little bit of a problem gaining weight.


18 weeks......

I FELT YOU MOVE THIS WEEK!!!!!!!! Was not sure that it was you, until i felt it over and over and over. Just a fluttering in me, but I know that it was you. Still doing good, and the cyst pain is gone for now!


21 weeks.....

YOU ARE A LITTLE GIRL and your name will be RaeLynn Sue Malherek. We had our ultrasound on July 5, 2010 which showed us your little girl parts and confirmed what mom was thinking the entire time. I knew it in my heart that you were my little princess. Then today, July 6, 2010, the doctor called me and said that I had a low lying placenta, so we have to recheck with another ultrasound in 6 weeks and hope and pray that it is good. You are moving all the itme now and kicking and punching your momma so she knows you are in there! I love that feeling, even though you pack quite a punch already! Can't wait to meet you!!!

Love your momma!

Six weeks and counting.....

Well, you are still making me sick in the morning, but that is okay! I know that you don't mean to do it, and if it makes you healthy in the end, I will endear it.

The big news for this week is your cousins arrived. So, I have been staying up late at nights and not eating very well, and for that I am sorry. It is starting to get back on track here, so all is good. You will have so much fun playing with them! Elaina is doing well, and McKenna is in NICU in St. Cloud. You have most likely heard me talking to Elaina though, since I have been Cat's little helper with her. You are going to love them, I already do!

Anyway, we have our first doctors appointment next monday, and then set up an ultrasound. Then we can see you in there! Hope you are healthy and content. Can't wait to meet you.

Love
Your Mommy.

Letter to the little one.....

Five Weeks.....

Well, the morning sickness is still here, and it is extending its welcome! I feel like throwing up from the moment I wake up to till about 3 in the afternoon. But I just keep telling myself that you are soooo worth it. I will endear any pain or discomfort for you to be healthy and happy.

Your daddy is already talking about baby proofing the house, and you aren't even here yet! He is going to be such a good daddy to you, just wait and see.

Right now, my craving is green beans, believe it or not! I LOVE them! They are one of the only things that I can eat and keep down, along with making me feel good. So, you are either going to love them or hate them! We will have to wait and see.

I am starting to "feel" bigger, with some of my pants not fitting so well, and just feeling like I am always full. That is you. You are growing by leaps and bounds and this week, your brain is actually starting to grow! Amazing!

Well, I am off to bed, so that you get the rest that you need. I can't wait to see you!

Love,
Your mommy

A dream come true

Well, it happened.....we are pregnant!!!!!!!!!!! It has taken so long, many prayers, tears, arguments and unclear thoughts, but it finally happened. I am so happy, along with my hubby being happy, that it finally happened.

So, anyway, I thought that I would write what I am going through, and one day he or she could look back at this and see exactly what was happening to them and me before they were born.

Here goes:

4 weeks along:

I found out this weekend that you were in my tummy. I had not been feeling very good and was going to wait until I knew for SURE, but I couldn't. I woke up on March 6, 2010 (feeling like I was going to throw up) and decided today was the day. I was going to take a pregnancy test, and if it came up negative, just keep on trying. Imagine my surprise when it came up POSITIVE!!! I cried, and stared at that stick, for an hour.

Your daddy was upstairs sleeping and I waited and waited and waited.....then at eight am, i couldn't wait any longer. I had to tell someone besides Zoe! So I woke him up with "Are you ready to be a daddy?" Needless to say, he is anxious for you to get here, even though we have a long road ahead of us!

So far, I am getting sick in the mornings. Not horribly, and it is all worth it in order for you to be healthy. I have lost some weight, but I am working on getting that put back on in order to make you stronger.

Well, I am going to bed here soon so that I am not tired when the dreaded morning comes to greet me. I hope that you are healthy and safe in there and grow strong!

Love
Momma

Completion!

Well, the baby shower if done! I thought that all in all it went very well, and i didn't get mad, upset or teary at all. Today, different story. That was probably one of the hardest things that I had to do, was give a cutsie baby shower for my baby sister that is having the biggest blessing you can ask for, with no job, no money and no husband. But here we are, yet again for another month, not pregnant.

It is so very hard to see everyone so happy for her, when a part of me still feels like it should not happen. She should grow up and realize what is coming and THEN she can have these little miracles. But NO, she gets them by accident, and we are still trying our hardest. When will life ever be fair???? Probably never, so you just keep on praying and hoping and wishing.

Keep praying!